Saturday, July 19, 2014

FTH #6

Hey
I heard what happened 
How are you doing? I guess I shouldn't be talking to you at a time like this but I just wanted you to know that if you ever want to rage or whatever I'm here. Although I'm not the best person for that and you already have someone for that but yeah. 
You aren't ugly at all. I would totally go for you. You are probably one of the more inspirational friends I have. I remember even before I got to know you someone told me your story. He would also tell me about how perf your relationship was whenever I was struggling with people. And yet, yours fell first. He also told me that every relationship had problems despite how good they looked. I used you as a counter example. We all thought you guys were the together forever precious memories 白头偕老。

I love you. Please don't lose hope. Although I doubt you're that kind of person. I will be here with open arms and  an open heart. 

Monday, July 7, 2014

Stoker

I want to say sorry. 
Regret always comes after, and now I'm feeling it. 
I was so wrapped up in this idealised imagined fairytale that I didn't realise everything was one- sided. 
I don't deserve to have because I doubt I can ever give. You will meet your 100% perfect girl for you, and I hope you keep her. It is hard to fight when my flaws are innumerable. 
I hope one day I will meet my 100% perfect boy for me. I think I will let him go. I've never been anything but a bane. 
I feel like a parasite, leeching my happiness from the bones of others. 
See you at the end of the world. I will always care.