New years eve

I'm outlining stupid climates at oh, 22 mins to new years and gosh darn everything
Got my new years ruined kind of
Just so mad and it's new years and argh
AT LEAST JUST BE NICER TO ME
like wtf I know i'm nothing to you
but can't you just make my 22 mins?

ahhh I'm just so overly emotional right now
Honestly today has been a veyr veyr shitty day mental -wise
Like nothing bad (except what sparked me to RAGEEEEE this post) actually happen, getting braces, ate ice cream, got some games, nice dinner
But I'm just so darn bitchy today esp to my mother
And I feel terrible I actually started crying over an argument with my sister over toothpaste and you can tell right now my emotional state is not the best
I'm tearing right now which is terrible

I just
I just wanted you to be nice to me
argh AM I PMSING BECAUSE THEN WHY THIS

Merry new year people

Confession #1

When people write "amaze" without proper grammatical context such as "omg amaze" I read it in my head as "a- may- zee".
Also "a-may-zee balls"
Is it "a- maise balls"?

And look I'm not even working on research paper hahahahaahahahah screw.

In an effort to motivate myself,

I shall list all the things I should be doing.

>Mis favourita actividades AKA Spanish homework
>Outlining geography text (half done, only thing I've worked on)
>Writing a research paper assigned to me freaking a month ago and I have literally done nothing and it's due in, oh, FIVE DAYS (see the annoying thing with numbers is that you can't cap them)
>Studying for mid term exams

What I actually do.
>Watch all seasons of Archer in FOUR DAYS
>Chug yogurt and kettle corn
>Watched movies (Tarantino is so good)
>Read
>Surf all day long (look sports!)
... THE INTERNET THAT IS
>Chronicle my life in blog posts

Christmas

Eve.
Oh wait nope, it's officially Christmas now

Damn my father was all "I'm so happy to be talking to you. We haven't talked for such a long time in a while." And I just felt sld;jfdslf GUILT IN EVERY ORIFICE because I was only talking to him to get him away from my aunt.

Terrible terrible child.
Spent all day protobowl-ing and then watching Archer.
Ahh what am I doing with my life?
I should be learning how to cure lives with stem clel research

Day post, 4chan style

Gonna blog about my day in >greentext format cause if I actually pad it out with coherent grammar and details I'll end up getting sad/lazy/frustrated halfway (see this is why my writing has been so shitty lately) and end up SJFSDFJDSJFS then ending post

It's not the best saturday ever (obviously) but it's a better one IMO because of how it manages to end up great


> so earlier this week this guy "invites" me to a party
> really shady so very tentative, try not to get hopes up
> day before seems super optimistic so eff this, hopes sky high through the roof, ladder to Pluto
> coupled with all time lowest weight in 3 weeks
> wake up at 10 effing am
> exercise hard core godmode for two hours
> purge sweat like everybody's business
> mother finally lets me fruit diet for winter holiday
> eat only fruit and veggies for breakfast
> actually feel pretty damn good
> take shower, shave in 3 months (tmi, i know)
> lay outfit I scraped together the night before out (by scraped together I mean I spent 5 hours trying everything on and realising how terrible my wardrobe is)
> call guy to ask plans
> mfw when he says he's not going
> tfw I washed hair, nail polish, the whole works and this guy just shits on me
> ask cuz for a ride, tfw he agrees cause he's the most lovely cuz ever
> mfw asshole says without the original ride I can't go
> RAGE
> RAGE RAGE RAGE
> Mope around sad and binge on everything
> inb4 weight gain
> Cousin asks to hang out
> Wears outfit was planning to wear, because eff this, I deserve to feel pretty
> Compliments
> mfw mother says I look super slutty
> mfw severely misjudge weather and my cold tolerance
> Eat dinner, browse web, watch Dota tournaments
> ALL WITH MY LOVELY COUSIN
> Go out for some delicious ice cream
> mfw standing outside shop for a good 5 mins nearly going into hypothermia because "oh you looked like you weren't that cold" excuse me have you seen what I'm wearing??? But it was a nice outfit so doesn't matter, looked good
> Half heartedly listen to cousin go on about Dota for good 20 mins, can't input because don't play
> at least dude bought me make-up
> go around neighbourhood looking at nice- ass christmas lights
> late night with cry and russ in 12 mins

Wonderful ass saturday night

Obligatory I survived apocalypse post

I SURVIVED THE APOCALYSPE/ SUPPOSED ENF OF WORLD
And unfortunately suffered traumatic injuries that prevent me from going back to fix those typos
AKA
Laziness.
My electricity went out for like 20 mins though and I admit, I freaked the eff out.
But when the lights blinked back on it was all haha shits and giggles you got me good power station
And I immediately broke every promise I made to the heavens above to keep me safe

I'm supposed to be getting sleek and sexy arms right now
Holy shit
I heard a noise
I'm also reading scary stories so hahaha PARONOIA
But shall be blogging because you know, procrastination

Winter holidays finally!
I received unexpected Christmas presents fro my peers/ NOT FROM MY FAMILY I WIN THE INTERNET
So now I have a shit load of chocolate (delicious delicious hershey kisses) and candycanes
I also got a teddy bear and two very sweet cards
Well, not sweet per se to anyone else it would be more "wtf they barely spent effort on this shit" but no one gives me cards so  :)

My grades are even more terrible this marking period!
Ahhh
And I'm not even trying to rectify them ahahahaha
I'm terrible I know

White lies

I'm in a very wfjsdakjf mood right now so let me rant.

I'll have like, 3 Bs coming in this interim.
And I'm not even caring like I should.
In fact, I'm just overall apathetic about everything and it makes me feel terrible.

Recently event A happened and normally I should be crying or whatever, or at least upset but honestly can't bring myself to give a shit.
Half of me has enough self - esteem to not believe, and the other part of me's just "Oh dandy. Screw you too. Bye"
Or I've just overestimated the amount of feelings I invested.

Also, I watched Howl's Moving Castle and IT WAS SO SAD
Shit ending, BUT SAD
And alrejwak this post is going to shit

Late nights

Surprisingly, my grades right now are not entirely kaput.

Got the chance to go grocery shopping and seeing I may not go for another month or so, I went HAM on snacks and shizz
Got ice cream, kettlecorn, seaweed, seaweed, seaweed, oatmeal (it was to offset the junk food, haha damn right it will)
I'm justifying it by saying it's Christmas (which it is, every day after Thanksgiving is Christmas season). I think one of the things I miss about television is the Cartoon Network Christmas specials. Love Billy and Mandy.

I just saw something which made me go "omgomgomgomgomgomg is that a reference to me wtfwtf???!!!"
which means i read wayy too much into everything, but it makes me feel so good!

i seriously need to boost my self confidence. it's really affecting the way i program, and causing me a lot of heartbreak.