Ouch

I don't know why, but when I think about you, there's this

tugging feeling

like, in my heart.

How cliche, I know. But, it physically pains me. My breaths don't come as easy. I just want to curl up and hug myself, right here on this dirty floor. 

Three times in the same day I've felt like crying. Tears actually welled up.

It's not my fault you're so fucking stupid that you can't understand my play on words tard.

I want you.

I hated trying to deal with your negs and shit tests and I ended doing really badly

But I 

It just hurts it's like an actual ache. Like I actually am missing this part of me and urgh.

I just hate when it's night because I can't cope with this. I can't rationalise properly and think about what a dumbass I'm being.

It makes me so incredibly sad.

CC

Went volunteering at the community centre today and holy shit

It was so nice!
It was basically cleaning and manual labour for a few hours
Until they had this speaker and had some food out
omgomgomg they let me eat so much and they were so nice so delicious

Late night lists

I like the way cheap icing melts in my mouth. I like the sickening sweetness of the cream as it congeals in my throat.
I like laughing because it hurts too much whenever your name stares me in all its majestic greyness.
I like licking my dry lips and knowing it only makes the worse but doing it anyway.

We were too different but I had so much fun
Estuve comoda en tu brazos
I'm not entirely sure if that is right
I'm not entirely sure I'm right

switch (yourFeelings)
case "A big damn lie":
Well shit I'm a fool
break my heart;
case "Nahhh":
Well shit I'm a fool
breaking into pieces;

Well shit I'm not making sense
My programs aren't either
The complier says error but I don't care
You're a perfect int and I'm a float with my trailing zeros and irrationality
Incompatible types but I don't care
Typecasting killed those bits of me
Those bits that thought with a brain
Now I wake up 30 mins earlier to apply a coat of useless mascara
Now I blink itchiness away because this "Smudge- proof, water- proof 24 hour" mascara lied to me
Which fits you

I guess

Ahh the internet

I've been mturking my homework/sat time all away today

Earned like a dollar but satisfied! 

At this rate in two weeks I'll be able to buy some really cheap skirt on f21

And less than 20 mins later...

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh my stomach hurts so much
omg i think i overate or drank too much water because i'm seriously bloated
i think my skin is stretching like tomorrow i will wake up and see stretchmarks
ahhhhhh ahh now i'm thirsty but i can't drink water and omggggg

Nom nom nom

Okay I'm sitting here right now and my window is especially reflective, and my reflection makes me face look super narrow (well, narrower)
So a food post
At my old school there was this football player who was in love with clementines. He would talk about them and had like 500 of them everyday
And he has a point because THEY ARE SO GOOOOOOOOD

I just ate 7 clementines in the last 2 hours and I would go for more but urgh, the kitchen is too far away!
Damn these things are freaking delicious they have so much sugar in them though I think I can eat one more before I max out my daily sugar intake
And that's disregarding the food I ate before this
But man oh man so naise

Too lazy/ too busy procrastinating

Don't really have time for this but here's a summary

-Moved to Cali
-Damn this water tastes bad
-Holy crap this weather is amazing
-Oh. Everyone ignore the new kid okay
-Oh. Everyone love the pretty new Russian girl okay
-Oh. Let me just eat all alone next to the bathroom okay
-Damn this homework
-Damn why am i not doing homework
-Alright let's start an argument at midnight
-Pain pain sorrow homework
-Second week of school here we go