Ouch

I don't know why, but when I think about you, there's this

tugging feeling

like, in my heart.

How cliche, I know. But, it physically pains me. My breaths don't come as easy. I just want to curl up and hug myself, right here on this dirty floor. 

Three times in the same day I've felt like crying. Tears actually welled up.

It's not my fault you're so fucking stupid that you can't understand my play on words tard.

I want you.

I hated trying to deal with your negs and shit tests and I ended doing really badly

But I 

It just hurts it's like an actual ache. Like I actually am missing this part of me and urgh.

I just hate when it's night because I can't cope with this. I can't rationalise properly and think about what a dumbass I'm being.

It makes me so incredibly sad.