Recently I've been binge watching Netflix in order to get away from reality/ college applications/ expectations I've set for myself which I'm starting to think I will never reach. Included in this list of television shows that I probably don't mention in neither polite conversation nor high society is Bojack Horseman. Initially it comes off a humorous, stoner (not really) comedy like Family Guy. Stupid jokes, stupid life. But as it progresses I'm really starting to feel sorry for this guy because he is so self-absorbed yet too self-aware and he knows exactly what an asshole he is yet he can't stop himself from hurting people deliberately. He knows he messed up his life and he seeks constant validation from people to tell him it's "not too late."
Unfortunately, this strikes a chord a little too close to me. Just like BH I cover myself with superficial activities to distract myself from the fact that I'm substandard and disappointing, adjectives that actually describe me thank you very much college interview questions. I don't want to be a waste of space, noun that has been applied to me already thank you very much asshole guy from my school.
I feel like I've accomplished a lot yet it feels so empty. I just feel so empty.
Also Diane is honestly a bitch. She likes attention, she feels like she's much more superior to all these people and thinks that because she's smart she doesn't hurt people. Just because she's socially less dysfunctional doesn't mean that her deliberately leaking the chapters to Buzzed and betraying BH's trust makes it okay. She's trying to show people her book is accepted to BH so she can get it published and get famous. How is she different from BH betraying Herb? Except BH was threatened and Diane did this of her own accord that BITCH
