Aye, sad day

So...
I didn't make Envirothon
And it saddens me even though I knew it as soon as I made my presentation.

It seems.
There is a defining moment, when everything falls apart like a ball of yarn being unraveled.
It's like, you can finally see me for who I am and everything that meant I don't know what to you
Can't compare to what a dumbass, bitch I am.
So my personality can be repulsive and I use people but but
I actually care.
When I interact with people, it's all genuinely me.
If I tell you I like you, then I actually do.

And I don't know how to repair something that never existed
I just want to
To
To make things okay again