Okay I've been spending an unreasonable amount of time on YA when I should be doing SAT and it really pisses me off.
The users are stupid and untrollable. Also the girl are actually attractive?? And like the beauty and style part is full of like 7th graders and it is really, really, sad because they're all super skinny and younger than me.
And I feel old and useless because dude I'm 14 almost a fifth of my life has gone by (assuming I live till 75)
And I want to be successful so much but I don't know how to control myself and instead I'm off writing stories to make me feel better about myself
But that doesn't work out at all because all the scenarios and fantasies I incorporate only serve to make me feel worse since they didn't come true.
And at times like this I go shopping but there's no car and I don't want to waste money and I didn't go outside this stupid snobby neighbourhood for the past 5 freaking days I'm dying!!!!
There's still my stupid high school schedule which makes me feel even more shit about myself I just want to crawl out and cry.
I actually have been crying because my emotions are so unstable and I saw this old story I wrote and it made me so mad I cried
Because this world is so full of douchebags and YA is stupid when you kiss someone for money that does not make you a prostitute and I keep getting thumbs down
Oh dear.
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